This blog was co written with the support of my Michelle.
The last two weeks I've been experiencing some side effects to my comfort treatments including feeling a bit dazed, confused and moody. I do blame the drugs for this, however regardless of the reason, it has been impacting my ability to communicate. I mix up passwords for social media, I get mixed up on the days sometimes, and well, yes I am having mood swings.
What do I mean by dazed, confused and moody?
Dazed? I feel a bit as if I am in a fog and have trouble concentrating most of the time. In a daze, is the best way I can describe how I feel.
Confused? I mix up my numbers and letters and get really frustrated with social media and with auto correct, it is a constant battle to get things typed out! I forget what day it is - but I think that is somewhat normal given COVID and end of summer . I do get frustrated with my confusion and as a result you will find I'm not on social media as often as usual. My apologies if you got a mixed up message from me - I blame it on the autocorrect lol! You will also notice that lately my blogs have been co written by the support of my family- it's easier for me to tell them what to write, and they type it out.
Moody? Who can blame me for being moody, but it is hard to keep the filter on and sometimes I am lashing out a bit. I feel it happening and I do feel it is related to the drugs. I have heard of something called steroid rage, while I am not in a rage, I do feel that the steroids that help me in so many ways, are also causing the mood swings. So you have to balance, or give and take, the benefit with the down side of the drug. The benefits are it gives me an appetite, helps with my energy level and strength, but we have the mood swings. Luckily they have a pill for that too - but it shows that often taking one medicine, leads you to take another to deal with the side effect and so on and so on. Hopefully things will start to even out for me soon. I am thankful I have such an understanding and forgiving family. Love them!
And running a bit late? Well my apologies to you all! I like to post these blogs on Fridays, but I was able to make it to the Maroon 5 concert on Thursday evening, and it really knocked me out of commission for Friday and I needed the time to rest. It was a fabulous evening and I a glad I pushed myself to go. However it also really opened my eyes and that of my family, in terms of accessibility. We took my wheelchair, it was quite a road trip. More on this next week!
Wishing you clear thoughts, productive days and positive moods!
Wishing all my education colleagues and those heading back to school next week, all the best! I will be thinking of you while sipping my coffee on the deck!
Richard
